Status report

So we're a few weeks into 2007, and something is inside me, bursting to get out.

I wish I knew what it was.

Let me begin by saying that 2006 was a trial by fire for me. A year where I fought every battle and lost, and slunk away defeated to hide in a cave for the latter quarter of the year.

A year without any form of victory other than moral or phyrric. And those simply do not count. Not to a lionhearted warrior.

I've recovered though, for the most part. I feel like a man recovered from a grievous injury. He knows he's healed, but he's fearful any time he puts any pressure on the aggrieved part, worried that it will go out from under him. These fears are foundless as eevry test placed before me is conquered and completed with little to no difficulty.

But the fear remains. I tell myself it's just part of the process. Some days I even believe it.


Obligatory Firefly quote:
Live with a man forty years. Share his house, his meals, speak on every subject. Then tie him up and hold him over the volcano's edge, and on that day, you will finally meet the man." Shepherd Book

So I've been over the volcano's edge. And I met the man. I thought I was broken. I wasn't. I thought I couldn't believe. I still do. With that in mind, I am unveiling my 2007 theme song.

Faith of the Heart, Rod Stewart

It's been a long road,
To get from there to here.
It's been a long time,
but my time is finally here.

And I can feel a change in the wind right now.
Nothing's in my way.
And they're not gonna hold me down no more.
No they're not gonna hold me down.

'Cause I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my heart will take me.
I've got faith to believe.
I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul.
And no one's going to bend or break me.
I can reach any star.
I've got faith,
I've got faith,
Faith of the heart.

It's been a long night,
Trying to find my way.
Been thru the darkness,
Now I finally have my day.

And I will see my dream come alive at last.
I will touch the sky.
And they're not gonna hold me down no more.
No they're not gonna change my mind.

'Cause I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my heart will take me.
I've got faith to believe.
I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul.
And no one's going to bend or break me.
I can reach any star.
I've got faith,
Faith of the heart.

I know the wind's so cold,
I've seen the darkest days.
But now the winds I feel,
Are only winds of change.
I've been thru the fire,
And I've been thru the rain,
But I'll be fine.

'Cause I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my heart will take me.
I've got faith to believe.
I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul.
And no one's going to bend or break me.
I can reach any star.
'Cause I've got faith,
'Cause I've got faith,
Faith of the heart...

Faith of the heart.
I'm going where my heart will take me.
I've got faith to believe.
And no one's going to bend or break me.
I can reach any star.
'Cause I've got faith,
'Cause I've got faith,
Faith of the heart...

It's been a Long Road...